I try to do the best I can to get through the daily trials life throws at me
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
And So It Is......
I know I have not written anything since the year started and I feel terrible for it but oh lord how things go chaotic around here at times.
To start with my dear son Shane has been very sick for going on 5 weeks and is slowly getting better thankfully. Sadly he and I are dealing with a rather serious issue of late and that would be his eating habits. My child has taken it upon himself to not eat if he can help it because, and I quote, "I don't want to get fat like the people on Biggest Loser did mama" Now INITALLY I deemed this to be a "safe" program to watch. I mean come on now folks, no sex, no violence, encouraging healthy lifestyle and such but little did I realise at the time that even though my child reads at the level of a 10 year old child, can rationalise with the best of adults, tackle math problems that 8-9 year old children struggle with and hold rather 'grown-up" conversations he is in fact a 6 year old boy and television can influence oh so much.
My son weighed in last week at a tiny 24 kilograms and I am worried about his self-image. He and I have discussed that he NEEDS to eat to stay healthy, he will not get fat from eating healthy food and in a lot of ways it is genetically impossible for him to get fat if he eats right, after all his mama and his father are naturally thin people. But he refuses to see the logic to this argument and I am about to look into child therapists and dieticians to help him see that he will be ok.
The nightly arguments shatter my heart and I struggle to NOT cry when I see him taking the smallest bites of his food and deem himself "full" after a few mouthfuls of food. Wish me luck in this endevour people as I fear the road ahead will be long and painful for us both and I am doing it all on my own.
Something else that has been going on here sadly is that one of my dear friends was diagnosed with an inoperable brain cancer, she is 28 years old and the single mother to an 8 year old boy. This diagnoses has affected many people and has greatly impacted on another of my friends lives deeply. I have spent MANY a night babysitting 4, yes 4, children for many many hours whilst my friend has been visiting and helping our other friend through her health crisis.
I have been struggling within myself of late feeling terribly inadequate as a parent, as a friend, a person, as me and I have been trying to hold everything together for everyone who needs me. I know people will tell me to not forget about myself and I do try not to but sometimes things are so much bigger than me and I can't ignore the fact that so many people are relying on me and my strength.
I have been reading everyones blogs and even though I may not leave signs that I have been there rest assured that I have been. I have laughed with you and cried with you. I have not forgotten any of you I promise. I will TRY and be around more I really will but I cant be certain when I can post again, I will try though.
I know I havent blogged anything for a while but I have a good reason. Things are very confusing and hurting lately. Lost and messed up and I really dont have the words for everything right now. When I sort everything out I promise I will write stuff again but I just need to take some me time and work out where my head is at. I am sorry if you are one of my possibly devoted readers for being so slack but somethings are just to fucked up to write down until you know what they mean. I do still love you alol very much and will be back to bein me as soon as I can.
This week has been kinda strange here and busy as well so I will try and get this done while explaining the week as I go, not to sure how I go with it but lets try.
I am thankful that Shane and Princess Maddison's class did so wonderfully in their part of the show this week. Not one of the kids got stage fright and they all had a great time. I will attempt to post the video I shot tomorrow.
I am thankful for the rain we have had here. We needed it even though it is late spring and has been freezing cold here.
I am thankful for the INCREDIBLE thunder storm we had on Sunday night that went all night long. I LOVE thunder storms.
I am thankful that I FINALLY finished redoing my myspace page and that it looks amazing!!! I recolored 20 pictures in 2 days so I am very proud.
I am thankful my migraine has faded away cos I hate it when I wake up with one like I did this morning.
I am thankful that I got to speak to My One because with him life is so bright and wonderful and full of hope.
I am thankful for all my amazingly wonderful friends who even though I havent seen them much this week still keep me in the loop of whats been going on with them all.
This was the name of Shane's school production. And I have to tell you I was totally BLOWN AWAY by the fantastic talent each and every child displayed in this production. Let me try and give you a run down of how it went, but let me tell you all that it was based around Australian Television and the fact that we have had 50 years of it, so there were a lot of Aussie Celebs portrayed.
The show started with the school's principal announcing there was going to be many "special" guests. He then proceeded to introduce Kylie Minogue and one of the students came down the centre aisle singing the theme song for the show "On A Night Like This." Wearing a 6th grade version of one of Kylie's Show Girl outfits, feather head dress and a big feathery tail, reaching the stage other kids from the same class all sang and danced to the song.
Then two of our breakfast type show celebs were introduced "Kochie and Mel" dont ask cos I dont watch morning tv unless it consists of cartoons. They "interviewed" various Aussie iconic "celebs" like Paul Hogan, Dame Edna Everage, Bindie Irwin, Ian "Molly" Meldrum, Frankie J Holden and a few others who i cant think of off the top of my head. In between each "interview" were song and dance routines.
Up first was Shane and Princess Maddison's class doing their piece on the Flintstones. There was a big Fred Flintstone car that one of the mothers made and the kids were the epitome of OMG cuteness!!!!!!!! They were all smiles and danced every step that they could remember. They did so well for kindergarten kids. I was so impressed and proud of each and every one of them.
After each dance routine were the kids remakes of well known Australian televsion commercials for various products. The ads were funny and clever and very well done.
After Shanes class did their piece there were routines about shows like Countdown, Playschool, Happy Days, a take off of The Iron Chef, Red Faces and a grand finale involving all the kids singing and dancing once again to the theme song of the night.
The teachers and parents all did a truly amazing job of the entire production, lighting, set, costumes, everything. The kids were all consumate professionals and not one of them froze up on stage in front of all the bright lights and cheering parents and friends. Over 150 kids participated in the show and each and every one of them got to have stage time.
I am so looking forward to see what they come up with for next year now. It is bound to surpass this one I have no doubt. And when the school release their dvd recording of the event I will be buying a few copies to be sent to family and friends all over the world.
I am posting my own little recording of the show on youtube and be adding it to this page when it is ready to go.
This is a song by Edwin McCain. I want My One to read these words and maybe get the song and listen carefully. Do you get it my love?? I love you with all that I am, all that I was and all that I will be. And even though it was written for a woman the sentiment carries through to the way my heart feels for you.
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful Stop me and steal my breath Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder I'll Be love suicide I'll Be better when I'm older I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof As we lie awake in my bed You're my survival, you're my living proof My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder I'll Be love suicide I'll Be better when I'm older I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder I'll Be love suicide I'll Be better when I'm older I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
This is simply a heartbreaking loss and my heart goes out to the family of Belinda Emmett and her husband Rove McManus. Tributes flow for Belinda Emmett | NEWS.com.au The 32 year old first got diagnosed with breast cancer at 24 years of age and despite beating it once and ending up with bone cancer she never let it stop her until the end. She as well as Kylie Minogue are reminders for us all that we are never to young to get checked for breast cancer.
